Regarding creative visualization…hmmm, it’s not really what I was reaching for here, and I think it’s a different animal. CV almost seems like trying to forge desire instead of allowing it to enter awareness naturally. I personally have not practiced it much. Perhaps that is how spiritpolar desire operates, to spin up the picture and focus on it…my desire tends to be much more emotionally based, coming in feelings, which are sometimes organically attached to pictures, but not pictures I am intentionally cultivating, if that makes sense in terms of the distinction.

I may find myself focusing on the pictures that arise naturally, but only if it’s happening w/o my pushing or holding it in place. It’s not because I sat down to do so.

Re being dissatisfied with the now…there’s nearly always (always?) emotions in that place of dissatisfaction, and when I can process/express those, I find pictures of what I really want flowing into that previously compressed area, like water filling a cup that got emptied. As I write, I’m getting perhaps that CV is an attempt to push through, past, or over the compressed emotions in that “disatisfied” place, superimposing a more satisfactory picture. But it just doesn’t feel like an organic, “right time” process to me to do that, which is why I suppose that I haven’t practiced it…it doesn’t seem to be something I’m drawn to do.